SIGH

So we have been doing homeschooling for a few weeks and man it is hard to start. But I know in the end it will all be worth it. Getting on the right balance of things is a very hard thing as well.  I know the man reason we decided to do homeschooling for our kids is that the world seems to think it has the right to teach my children things that I disapprove of. Being able to home school opens doors for me to teach my children what I feel is important for them to know. I don’t have to allow them to be taught inappropriate information that will cause them to question truths. We have to really rely on God in this new transition of every area of our life.

We are also having to rely on God for finances in every area of our lives at this time. We have our bills paid but any left over for day-to-day life is well…. our FROG (fully relying on God.)

When things get this way. I get in a very (I want to Control) mommy mode. I hate not knowing when or where the money to pay for things is coming from. God knows.

Going through this season of LEAP is not for the faint of Heart. We are to Seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness. Once we learn to put His will in our lives 1st then we will see everything else we need just fall into place.

This journey of Life is not for the Faint. If I stand firm and trust His word and promises then I will see the goodness of the Lord prevail in my life.

Advertisements

April 26, 2016

It has been a really rough l;11ast month. I have been able to let go of some things, but there is still other things that I have been struggling with still this week.

Finances are one of the worse issues to worry about. I know in the worldly system we live by says that we have to make very little and struggle from pay check to pay check.

To me as a mother, and wife that is not working right now it is hard to look at our finances and think that it is okay. This week alone we have has 2 doctor appointments that have cost us over 180 alone, then one of the medicines was 40. Plus the gas back and forth. When the check that came in to the home last week was under 300 it is hard to see how to get everything paid. To be honest it won’t pay all the bills and every thing else.

I am faithful in giving my tithe to God so I know that He will provide no matter what but to have that faith when everything in the human mind-set says otherwise is one of the hardest things to do. This is why we are to have faith…

Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. Hebrews 11:1

I have to remind myself of this. Faith is the substance of things hoped for…. the evidence of things not seen….

I don’t see it but I know it is there and soon will manifest in the realm here and now. I trust that God will see us through this time. Even though it is difficult not to just jump up and go fix the problem myself I am putting my faith in Him.  For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. Jeremiah 29:11

I have to remind myself to stand on these promises that He has given me when everything seems to be going in the opposite direction in life.

8.For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the LORD.  9.For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts. 10.For as the rain cometh down, and the snow from heaven, and returneth not thither, but watereth the earth, and maketh it bring forth and bud, that it may give seed to the sower, and bread to the eater: 11.So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it.

Isaiah 55:8-11

I will choose to trust the Lord even when everything else seems to be going in the wrong direction for us. We will persevere to the end.