After a bout of uncertainty over the first part of the year, life has taken a turn for the better in many ways in the latter.
My wife and I enrolled into Integrity Bible Seminary: she is going for her masters in missions, and I’m working on my associates in theology. By the time we have completed our education we will not have our doctorates: this will help us in our ventures into the ministry field, which is something we desire to be able to do full time.
Four months ago we started our own business, Leap Generation LLC. It has been slow, we think we could have taken a better approach with it. We currently are in the process of revamping the business. We started it with the main purpose of it being a way for us to support being full time missionaries. We don’t believe where we started is wrong, but it would make it more difficult to do while overseas.
One of the things Daddy (God) has began taking us through a period of preparation of training, not in just one area of life but in all aspects of it.
He told us to sell our TVs that they were to much a distraction, to put away ‘childish things’. The training will cover everything from what we eat, drink, do, think, say and much more.
Another part of the process has been to start learning Spanish, which has been fun and interesting to say the least. We picked up two complete (OT & NT) Spanish Bibles: this being the case because of where we feel the Father leading us to go; which are Central and South American regions.
Downsizing: getting less materialistic items for the sake of just getting them, or even to fulfill desires isn’t important to us any longer. Now we weigh things in the scales of calling and Divine purpose. Does what we desire to attain furthering the Kingdom and the Gospel thereof? This is the wisdom that drives us in what we don’t and do acquire in life.
Another one of the things Daddy has really laid strongly on my heart to do is to really buckle down and write a book. This is something I had dabble with in the past but put off doing, then when I picked it back up, Yahveh stopped me from completing it.
I fully believe it wasn’t it wasn’t the right time, nor the right focus on what He wanted it to deal with. But now He has laid it heavily upon my heart to revisit and finish writing this book.
We are both very excited to see where the next three years open up, to where Daddy leads us for His Kingdom!
I just want to say how I am grateful for the parents God has blessed me with. They have helped my with my girls over the years so much.
Tonight my daughter was stung or bitten by an unknown bug or spider. Why my dad didn’t ha
ve too come over to the house to check on my daughter and help figure out what to do, he did.
They get my kids when I am at work and care for them when I am gone.
There is so much more that I have to be grateful for but they are just 2 amazing parents and grandparents.
I want to share with you a blessing God gave me 15 years ago that just keeps giving more. You see this blessing was my 15 year old daughter. God gave me her to change my life for the better. Stormy has a servant’s heart, always willing to help others. She has been my pride and joy. She has grown into a beautiful young lady that soon will be leaving us before we realize. It has been a joy to watch her grow over the years. I remember when she was little I would tell her that I love her all the time. I told her that I loved her so much that I figured it would be her first words. Over the years that love for her has grown. I am very proud of her she has good grades and is very caring. She longs to help others in need. I love you Stormy.
I thank God for my daughter He entrusted me to raise. Everyday I am learning something new. I pray that I train her up right in the way she should go.
I think that God that His love for us grows as well. He is pleased with us as we grow in Him.
It has been a very long but good Monday. Work was good and seemed to go by quickly. After leaving work I had a doctor’s appt that went well too.
My daughter had to show rabbits for the first time today. They didn’t place but she learned alot. I am proud of her.
My oldest daughter will be turning 15 on Sunday and it seems like yesterday she was just born. God gave me this child in the middle of a life style that could have been a bad one. If it wasn’t for my oldest child who God gave to me to raise I am not sure what or where I would today. Stormy was my turning point and she changed me for the better. I am so blessed to be her mom. I have enjoyed watching her grow up but I don’t want the last few years of school to go to quickly.
I know that God is going to use her in a mighty way for His Kingdom. She has always had a servant’s heart and the
courage of a mighty warrior. She will be on the front lines on the battle field. She will do might things for God.
I am Blessed to be trusted with such a treasure of Abba’s.
Excited to see His plan unfold for her.
Today was a long day at work but a blessing in disguise. I had to take off yesterday in order to rest due to not feeling well. I am able to make that time up working early and later. I am grateful I have a job and an awesome boss that understands that.
I am also grateful God has placed so many great friends in my life. When I need prayer they come in agreement with the need to be met.
Tonight is short but it is late. I am grateful God gave me 2 of the best parents in the world. They help me with my daughters and I enjoy still having family dinners where we all sit down and talk about our day… even if we fight over who gets to speak next. It is the little things that make my day.
So today was a beautiful day. Cloudy with a little sun, and of course we can’t forget the wind…
I want to lunch today and when I got back I was thinking… Lord let me get a close parking spot. As I drove in the parking lot there was not one open. I drove through the 4th row finally finding a spot. As I got out and started walking back towards the building. I just smiled… you see my God knows I have a goal to meet. I was further away from the door which made me walk more. I went into the building and was talking telling them I had to go to the warehouse. Now I not only am walking more but had a cart to push or pull to the warehouse as well. Daddy is making sure I am getting more exercise in. 🙂
I also went to work and was super busy today. In and out of my office… When I finally sit down at my desk I noticed my wedding rings were missing. Both of them. I never take my rings off. So I began to think what did I do with my rings??? I took them off only once and that was to color my daughter’s hair. I did put them back on in front of Stormy.
I remember when I was asleep my hand was by my face, but I thought that was a dream. I decided to call my dad and ask him if he could go to my house and see if I had placed them on my night stand. If he finds the rings to call me back and let me know.
I go out of my office to see if someone remembers or not me having my rings on this morning. When I got back in my office I had a voice mail from my dad. He did find my rings but they were actually in the bed covers.
So I was totally thankful and relieved that they were found. Guess I removed them from my finger while I was asleep.
Thankful they were easily found and didn’t have to be replaced.
God is good even in the smallest of things. Some days might not seem so grand of a testimony but other will.
I know it was a blessing to find my rings and my coworker said she could tell them minute I walked in that they had been found….for my face had lit up
God rejoices when one of the lost are found. He become joyful and lights up when what was lost is found again.
What Was Lost, Has Been Found!!!
The Lord revealed to me some things the other night as we were worshiping Him. Since I am a mother myself the Lord showed me an example of what He wanted me to understand by using my own situation as a parent with my kids.
I have always enjoyed giving my kids things that they would enjoy. Like taking them somewhere that was unexpected. To me the surprise that awaited them at the end of the car ride was always the best…. Keeping it a surprise was hard.
I would make plans for my children and not tell them of those plans. I will make reservations online and print out the tickets. I will set time and money aside to go eat some place special. I will get all the plans in order before even uttering a word.
After all the plans are set in order I will tell them when the time is right to get prepared for we were fixing to leave. If this trip required any special clothing such as shoes or long pants I would make sure those instructions were given. Other than that no other information would be given.
I would tell them to get in the car…. When my oldest was little she would ask me questions. Where are we going? What are we doing? When will we be there? All these questions were good questions but not for her to know. She would have to trust that I knew the plans and that she would soon find out, but it would be a process. These plans were not for her to be concerned about.
As she has grown to know the process over time. She has learned that if she will follow the directions at the beginning of the trip and then sit quietly that reward will soon be before her. She has learned to get in, sit down, and buckle up… without questioning the plans. Even though she doesn’t see the plans or end results. She has learned to trust the process in me as her parent. For the plans I have made for her were not to harm her but to show her what was to come…….
Yes this is like the verse Jeremiah 29:11
11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. (NKJV)
Since my oldest daughter has learned how the process of trusting me when I say let’s go she has taught my youngest daughter that if she just follows the directions and sits quietly in the car then she would get the reward in the end without delay.
I say all of this because the Lord is taking my family through a time of follow the instructions, get in, buckle up, sit back, shut up, and enjoy the ride.
He wants us to trust in His plans that He has for us. Not to questions or try to fight the instructions of how it should happen. For He doesn’t always give us the plans for He wants to surprise us. For He is a Good Father and wants us to enjoy what is coming. The Lord knows the Plans He has for us. He wants us to just Trust in Him and not question the process but to enjoy the ride.
So even though I don’t know the plans that lie before me, my Daddy does. I am not to try to figure it all out. I am not to try to figure out where we are going, what we are doing, or how it is going to all fit together. I am to trust in my Daddy that He knows the Plans for me. One step at a time. He will give me instructions of what is needed for what lies ahead but the rest is not for me to know. He wants me to sit back and enjoy the ride while trusting Him.
ENJOY THE RIDE!!
When did we as a society lose all hope in a relationship that would be forever? I know that I am not perfect and I have a past that is something that I am not proud of but not ashamed of it either. Sometimes we have to go through things in order to understand what others go through. I just know that when it comes to relationships our generation thinks nothing of a relationship as in being committed to that one special person.
God created each and every one of us with desires to have a husband or wife. I believe that it is good for a man to leave his family and cling to his wife as they become one. It is good that a man find a wife.
Lately I have noticed more and more young and older ladies have given up on respect for who they are created to be. We as women are not created to be used by men for pleasure until they are done with us and want to move on to another female that pleasures them better. We are not to give ourselves away to words of promise but never commitment.
I see so many women and men playing house. I am not here to judge them. I too at one time played house more than once. I just now see how sad it is that our generation no longer cherishes themselves enough to wait for a man who is willing to make a life commitment.
I know that my life has not been perfect and I have gone down a path more than once that I now would not return to. I have learned my worth in who I am as a Daughter of God. I am no longer an orphan minded female looking to fit in where I don’t belong. For I have found where I belong and it is better than anything I could have imagined before.
The hurt will not stop, the loneliness, hopelessness, helplessness, and just plan pretending to be whole won’t ever go away until we learn our worth.
Here in our society we see women of all ages starting very young and going to much older seeking wholeness, love, acceptance, joy, hope, and longing to belong some where. I know where that is…
When we know that God the Father loved us so much that He sent His One and Only Begotten Son to die on the cross for our hurts, sins, bondage, loneliness, and hopelessness. Once we understand and believe what a Good Good Father He is to us but sending Jesus Christ to die on the cross for all of us to once again have hope and now be accepted as sons and daughters into the Kingdom of God. Going from Orphans to Royalty and Joint Heirs with Jesus. For He conquired it all for us once and for all. He rose again on the 3rd day.
We can now have hope in an expected end of Good and know that He is never going to leave us nor forsake us. He will forever be by our side and love us.
Now it seems like I have strayed from the meaning of this blog originally. But I haven’t lost the meaning at all. You see your worth as a person is not lost. Even if you feel like there is no hope of a new beginning there is. Let God through Jesus Christ become your Father and Jesus your big brother.
I know that being lonely is not the easiest feeling when as women we long to be connected to a family. Be connected to the Family of God. I know that if we wait and stay faithful that the Lord will bring the right man into your life at the right time.
Your Worth is Not Lost! Cherish Who You Are!
A Master Piece!
We as a family have been seeking Daddy for some answers in several different areas of our lives lately. One of those is where we would be moving too in the next 52 days. We were seeking His direction in the area of what to do. Such as, do we buy, rent, or did He have other plans for us.
Wednesday morning my husband was off work and my kids were still gone to their grandparents house so this gave us time to seek Daddy in the prayer room for answers. The first question we had for Him was what do we do when it comes to our house situation?
His answer to me was not what I expected.
He said, I will show you as you go out.
Trust in me.
Do you trust me?
Then walk forward I will show you. You have 3 homes to view today. View them…. I will give my answer after that.
After viewing the 3 homes the one we viewed 2nd was the one we liked the most. I informed the Realtor to start the negotiation process. For we have the first 600 needed to get the contract locked. But I told my daughter that if it was the house we were supposed to have that it would still be available when we got ready.
When we left we began to talk about this home and how it was what we wanted but deep down I was saddened. I don’t feel the desire to leave Ennis. I didn’t feel the release from my home town of the last 2 years yet. I know that without a doubt we have not been released from our home church.
As I began to think of the finances needed to purchase this home it would be more than what we have in our pockets. Which we were not fearing. I know that if it was where the Lord leads that He will make a way. Even if there seemed to be no way. I know that Daddy is teaching me to rely on His Kingdom system and not on the world system. Honestly that is one of the hardest things to do. To forget everything that I have ever been taught and to walk in Faith of a system that is Kingdom minded not earthly provided. For it is not in my own doing that these things are to be… I have for far to long relied on my own ability to provide and not my Daddy’s.
The scripture about counting the cost kept coming to my mind after we looked at this home. One it would cost us more than we had to get into it. Two the cost for a monthly payment would be 225 more a month than we wanted to pay. Then also if we were to purchase a home it would be something that we would be committing to 30 years of payments. We would in the end be paying 3 times what the purchase of the home would be in the first place.
For the last 6 months if not more the Lord keeps laying on my heart 4 to 5 years… That is all Daddy has been showing me. He has not told or shown me anything else but deep down I feel that we are grounded here for the next 4 to 5 years. This is why I don’t want to step our of His will for our lives and purchase a home that in the end is a cost that He doesn’t want us to have.
So Thursday Morning back to the prayer room we go, except this time it is the whole family in tow. Stormy soon after we started praying gave a word for us not to fear. I am sure she wanted to associate it with us buying the house. My husband prayed but soon left the prayer room. I for one could not get anything from Daddy during this time. So there I sat in the floor of the prayer room propped against the post just asking what to do….
Several things came to mind then. The same thought of counting the cost…. for this is a verse where it speaks of someone building a tower…. yes buying a home is a little different but still pertains to this scripture. To many people get into a home purchase that can not follow through the purchase due to the cost is too much. In return they lose their home. I for one do not want to step out and purchase a home unless Daddy tells me yes.
The second thing that came to mind is that again 4 to 5 years. I am not certain but again I feel this is telling me that we are temps in the area. Not to get settled for long-term. So why would we lock ourselves into a 30 year loan that we will become slaves too and not able to leave in 4 to 5 years. I know that if God tells us to buy a home then if He tells us to leave He will without a shadow of a doubt provide a way out. BUT if Daddy does not want us to but I for one do not want to have to ask Him to forgive us when it is time to leave in 4 to 5 years.
So this leaves rent option… We are to be out of our apartments in 51.5 days at this time. Where are we going to move to I have no idea…. but Daddy does. As I sit here writing this blog I am listening to the coffee shop owner teach the preteens about not being anxious for the thing of tomorrow. To trust that the Lord will provide the basic needs. Shelter, Food, Clothing for He does these things for the birds of the air and the flowers in the fields.
Then one of the girls was asked to give me a word of encouragement and then she prayed for us. She did an awesome job. I know that Daddy is working it out for us. He knows our need and where He wants us. He knows exactly what it will work best for our needs in every way. For we are a family of 4. We are faithful in our ways to God and He in return is faithful to us in every way. For He is a Good Good Father to us.
I am excited to see what He has in store for us. I am going to raise my expectations and trust in Him. I feel that the Lord is preparing our shelter for us. It might not be available yet but His timing is perfect.