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365 Days of Testimony: Day 32

As I walk daily in my life and begin to look around at others and their lives as well. I see how God has intertwined our paths along the way. I see people light up with smiles on their faces when I walk their way. I always tell people Good Morning, Good Afternoon, or Good Evening! I leave a smile for everyone to behold as I walk past them. I speak positive when they have negative to say. I try to let God’s light shine through me where ever I go.

I have been able to do this with ease without any problems, except…. one person , just one has me really trying to see why it is so hard for me to look past the negative and try to find the positive in this situation. I really truly feel like I have not sinned but really have had issues with being the light to one person I work with.

I was just recently moved at my job to take over another person’s position due to them moving to another position as well. I am now responsible for running the clerk duties on my new home with ease and getting ready for audits in less than 7 weeks.

Once I got back from my 5 days I took to spend with my husband out of state and returned to work. I was greeted with smiles, hugs, and we missed you… glad you are back.

I went to my new assigned place and wanted to start getting to work. For I knew the task ahead would be great. I had a delay. After my training I attended, about professional communication, that morning I needed to be able to get in my office and start working right away.

This is where my problem started with this person… Before I left Texas on April 18, 2017 we had a clerk meeting and it was asked if she would have all of her stuff done by April 25th, for when I returned that office would no longer be her office but my office. I waited patiently for her to leave and she would not. She busied herself with things that did not matter. Things that was just to stall. I decided that I would go to lunch with hopes of an empty office when I returned. Nope…. She was gone but I was unable to get on the computer because you guessed it, she locked it with her being still on the computer. I waited 30 minutes…..45 minutes…..1 hour…. I told the supervisor that she was still gone. (She told him she had to pick up a warehouse order, that would have taken like no more than 20 minutes max) So he came and restarted the computer and I was finally able to get on my computer for the first time that day but it was already 3:00 pm. I was able to get just one email actually read…. She had returned…. She kept going on and on about inventory which is something that clerks do not do on the home that is JCO’s job. I listened patiently and tried to be nice…. all the while wanting her to leave so I could get something done. By the end of that day I had accomplished nothing and felt like I had been there but not really there.

The next day…. I was able to get some things done…. but she was back…. going through what we call master files and moving up to 20 out of the cabinets. I just continued to work to get some of the everyday things we use in order. Around 4pm I noticed that she never returned to make sure the 20 master files were put away or sent off the home. I told the JCO VI that she needed to come move the files to where they were suppose to be. Well that did not happen. 15 minutes till time to go home, I am putting master files back in the cabinets behind locked files. I just wanted to go home by 5. The next day I was able to get things done.

I find myself, having the hardest time showing the Love of Christ to this person and I don’t know why. I am not rude to her… I am not mean… but I feel like I talk about her when I should not…. yes I am not perfect and yes I have a hard time dealing with this issue. …. I find that she has not done any of her clerk work over the last 4 months…. Which as all now fallen on my shoulders and made my burden very heavy… I have been on my new dorm for 5 days now. I work long hours and busy all day long. I have not even taken lunch the last 2 days. At the end of the day I personally feel like I have accomplished nothing…. I know that I am making progress but still… I feel like I have done nothing.

I am not sharing all this to complain… I know with the details in this blog it shows that my complaints are great with this one person.. and to be honest… they have been. I am not sure what I need to do… I made the statement several times that I was going to stop talking about it and ragging on her not doing anything in the clerk position…

I personally feel ashamed that I have behaved the way I have. I know that I am human, I make mistakes as well. I know that I am not being the christian person I profess to be when I do this. This is not the first time I have felt like I have not been handling the situation with this lady correctly.

In the bible Jesus was speaking to Peter when he asked Jesus about forgiveness….

21 Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, “Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother who sins against me? Up to seven times?” 22 Jesus answered, “I tell you, not just seven timesbut seventy-seven times!                        Matt 18:22

I feel that I am holding the extra work that was created for me against this person.. I feel like I am sinning with frustration and anger over the fact that she has not done what she said she was going to do. I need to forgive her and pray she will forgive me for holding this against her.

She probably will not understand me going to her and letting her know that I need forgiveness for feeling this way, but I feel like in order for me to stop with the negative connection, I have too. I don’t want the Love of Christ and the Light of His Goodness be snuffed out by this one issue. I want to be humble enough to say I am sorry and I am wrong for being and acting that way towards her. And, that I am sorry for sharing my feelings about what she has done with everyone I talk too because I am so frustrated and stressed over the situation that lies before me.

Once I ask for her forgiveness on it I pray that the Light of God and His Goodness will Shine through me once again without any hindrances.

Some of you might wonder how this blog fits in with testimonies…

You see, in order to be forgiven you must forgive. I for one am grateful that I know when something does not seem right within my walk with Christ. I am learning of course more and more everyday. I know that once I do my part… (asking forgiveness of this one lady, and then shutting my mouth about it from now on) God will handle the rest. I honestly don’t want to be the nagging and complaining clerk.. which I have been for the last week…

When I found out that I was being moved I knew this was going to happen.. I made the mistake and did not choose to walk in the Joy of the Lord, through it all. I have to get my Joy back…. (Jesus On You) and walk through this with a rejoicing heart… (I have a good job and I like my job) It may be hard or stressful right now but it will work out for the better. What satan tries to harm me with, God will turn it around for good. I will restore my walk and know that it is only by His grace that I am able to know that I have treated her wrong. Know what I have done is not the way to act and handle things that frustrate and anger you. Take it to God, keep quiet, and remember your Joy.

This is the day that the Lord has made, I will (choose) to rejoice and be glad in it!

This is a choice! Choose wisely, whom shall you serve?

365 Days of Testimony: Day 31

I am grateful and thankful that I am blessed with Good Health. 🙂 I am super tired right now so I will make this short and sweet.

I have been working super hard at work and nothing seems to be getting accomplished. I have do plenty and am always busy. I get caught up in looking at things through my eyes and not the eyes of my Lord. I will do one thing and have 10 more come on me. That is okay because I can handle it. I do need to realize that running myself down is not the way to go about my life. The same work will be there whether I complete it in one day, week, or month. I have a job to do and even if it is slow at first it will get done. I am grateful for my job that has worn me out the last few months. Many changes and lots of unknowns. But I assure you that there is One Known that will never change… That is that Abba is on the Throne! Jesus Conquered the Battle for me.

All he asked me to do was run the race and finish it. I want to run the race well. I want to complete it, not start it and then lose direction but to win the race and finish it well.

He will give us rest. He is our everything. God thank you for your rest, and your divine health that you give through Jesus Christ Blood on the Cross. I am truly grateful that your timing is perfect in all your ways. Not my way but your way..

Don’t forget to rest. Don’t grow weary, in doing well. Don’t give up hope. Stand firm on the Word that you may have life and life more abundantly.

 

365 Days of Testimony: Day 30

I am so blessed to have some awesome kids. God blessed me with 2 of the most beautiful girls in the world both inside and out. They are caring, loving, helpful, confident, and love God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit.

Today I was able to see just a glimpse of what God has allowed me to train up, results.

We had a very long day but a very good and blessed day.

Started out early this morning getting up and ready for Church. Out the door by 8 am. Got to church and Stormy sat beside me through the service. She took notes for one of our friends in her note book. After church we go eat with some really awesome friends from our old church catching up on all the things in between the last time I saw them.

Then we went and got shoes, I had a few other stops…. Stormy keep a good attitude the whole time and Chloe minded for the most part. No, she was good as well. When we got home Stormy jumped right in and started a load of laundry. Then she asked if I could turn our praise and worship music on Pandora. I did… Then they started working on cleaning their room. Soon after she cooked the cheesy bread that I had bought for dinner. She served it and then back to cleaning she went. Chloe helped with sweeping and cleaning the bathroom up. They both made me super proud tonight. Stormy then arranged all the shoes on a small book shelf to get them out of the floor. She finished the evening with taking the dog outside, along with trash. She then switched out another load of clothes and folded 1/2 a basket of clothes before bed.

She came home and did all this without being told to do it. She did an awesome job and I am super proud of her and Chloe for helping around the house. Even though it was the weekend and that is not the choice of activity for the weekend it was something we did together. We had small of spurts of laughter as we worked getting things done in our home.

It brought great joy to me knowing that they helped me without being asked and they were not fighting over it or crying that they were not able to do other things.

Abba, Father, thank you for trusting me with these two great and important vessels for your Kingdom. Help me to continue to train them in the way they should go.

365 Days of Testimony: Day 29

I was gone from Texas last week for 5 days. Then this week I had to work late and didn’t get home till late. My parents kept my kids another 3 days this week and I began to really miss them. So today I made it a point to spend some time with them.

I finally got over to my parents house and we decided to go watch a movie. The movie was good but I think the best thing is the part where Stormy and I make fun of each other because we both were trying not to cry. Looking over her direction to see her smile back because she knows just exactly what I was thinking.

On the way home I was driving the back roads and I knew a bump was coming in the road. As I began to go over the bump, I said, “Weeee!” To my surprise Stormy reacted by trying to hit me. Both Stormy and Chloe jumped…. We had a good laugh on the way home.

It is the little things like laughing together and knowing what the other one is thinking that is a blessing to me. I love my girls with all my heart and I am thankful God saw fit that I was good enough to raise them.

Enjoy the Small Stuff with the ones you love.

365 Days of Testimony: Day 28

As I was driving to work this morning I was thinking on a word for the Day…. As most use the word, “Wonderful” for Wednesday, I did not want to be the same as everyone else. I thought about it for a while and the word, “Warrior” came to my mind. I have thought about this on and off through out the day and have done a little search on it as well.

According to the Webster Dictionary the word Warrior means:

  1. a person engaged or experienced in warfare; broadly :  a person engaged in some struggle or conflict poverty warriors

365 Days of Testimony: Day 27

I am back in Texas! There is no place like home… I love my state.

As I transitioned from the long weekend off I had to the first day back to work I think how blessed I am to come back to a job.

I was able to take off work to enjoy 5 days off. All of which will be paid. I left and am able to come back and have my position that I had when I left. I was moved from the office that I worked in but everyone at my job has been moved. I had to wait most the day for my new office to become available for me to even be able to get into it. I will starting tomorrow began the process of cleaning out the old stuff and moving my stuff in.

I like to be able to start fresh and organized. I have to move out the old stuff, sweep the place clean and then move in the new.

We have to replace the old with the new or it can become worse than it was in the first place. If I were to clean it out but then move the old back in and then some it becomes crowed and more of a mess to deal with.

Replacing the old with the new is a good thing. Old things have passed away and He is making everything new. When a demon is cast out from it dwelling place we are to replace it with the Holy Spirit, but if we do not and it returns finding it empty then it will go and get 7 more demons to share the new with.

I want to make sure that my old is done with and that the new is here to stay.

It will not be an over night instant change but over time it will get organized, swept clean and put back in working order.

God is good and He wants us to have new. To have new bread daily, new grace every morning and evening, and to renew our minds even daily.

Use this work example of cleaning out and starting a new, of how our lives are supposed to be once God gets a hold of us.

 

365 Days of Testimony: Day 26

I have been blessed to have the weekend off to spend with my husband. The flight up here was smooth and that weather has held off where it was not an issues with my time with Daniel.

The time to be honest has flown by. Here it is Saturday afternoon and already I am just down to 1.5 days left to spend with my husband. I am grateful that He was able to get off work today. We spent time shopping and really enjoying just time together.

I am grateful for angels watch over us especially when my husband is driving in this state. They totally do not follow the law when it comes to red lights. It is right out scary. I found myself covering my eyes even when we came up on a light.

I am grateful for my home state and the safety laws. I am now truly grateful for God telling me not to leave my home church for now.

I am going to enjoy the next 1.5 days with my husband. Be Blessed.

365 Days of Testimony: Day 25

Yesterday I was early to my hair appointment. I had an hour and a half to wait on the hair place to open up. I was about to get out of my car and go to the coffee shop when my phone rang…

It was a dear friend of mine that I have not heard from in months. I had just saw her post on Face Book and she was having issues physically in her body. I just finished praying over her situation before she called me.

She informed me that she had been having issues with her back/neck and thought that she just needed an adjustment form the chiropractor. She made an appointment and then went but the next day her situation was worse. After 2 to 3 days of this the chiropractor decided that she needed an MRI. After the MRI she was told that her neck was in critical condition. He was going to refer her to a specialist.

So we were talking about it and how she is going to need to be seen soon. I told her that God has here and that she was going to be okay.

I again prayed for her and spoke over her situation.

About an hour and a half later she messaged me. She was able to get in to the specialist today at 1:30 pm. It normally takes a new patient 6 to 8 weeks to be scheduled with this specialist.

Then she called me later and told me that her husband has been trying to sell his motorcycle for months and has not been able to sell it. They even put it on someone’s lot to try to get it to sale. Still nothing. Well yesterday her husband was able to sell that motorcycle for $7000.00, a blessing in the time of need.

Today after her appointment the set her up to have an injection that should relieve the pain. If it is not better, they will then schedule her for surgery.

The testimony here in this situation is not that she is completely healed but that God the Father is at work in her life lining up her every need. God has her.

365 Days of Testimony: Day 24

I am going to just say that God blesses us with rain. I love the rain it does many things for someone. Rain washes away dirt and cleanses things. It also waters things when they are thirsty. It replenishes the ground full of vegetation and other life growing living things.

The rain brings new smells and life in the spring. It refreshes the air. God gave us rain to bring anew. The rain is to do away with the old, bad and creates new, good. It gives a new start on things.

Many people do not like rain but I say let it rain, let it pour out from Heaven. I tell people to just dance in the rain… I mean it dance and praise Him for a new season is upon us. After the rain has come and gone God gives us a promise to never destroy the Earth again with a beautiful sign in the sky. We love to see this sign and it is bright and beautiful. It is the rainbow. Usually you can see them in at least sets of 2 if you look close enough.

Remember to dance in the rain, shine as bright as the rainbow, but just remember that the treasure God seeks at the end of the rainbow is you.

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