365 Days of Testimony: Day 36

As the weekend came to an end I needed to get things done around the house. The usual of washing clothes, dishes, and taking the trash out as always. My oldest daughter was cleaning up the living room. My desk was a mess and needed to be cleaned up. I had stuff just piled on it. I told her that I did not want to clean it up today that I would do it later. As I was in the kitchen cleaning the dishes up, she started putting stuff on the kitchen table… She was moving everything off the desk to the table… I for one did not want to start that project of cleaning up the desk and all that was in it.

I did sit down at the table and I began to go through the stuff. Soon I had it organized and straighten. Trash had been thrown away and the desk is now clean and easy to find what is needed. I also was blessed with finding $6 cash in my purse that had been sitting on the floor by my desk for at least 2 to 3 months.

As I sat there going through the stuff that was piled on the table I began to thing about our christian walk with God. We do the necessary chores to get by in life. We go to church, we pray, we even at times pray for others. We make like look like we are doing the right thing. I know that I am not perfect, but on the outside to others they don’t always see the messiness inside.

I had clean clothes, dishes, and the trash was taken out… At least the trash that was in the trash can. Never mind the trash piled on, in, and around my desk. Now just to be frank it was not horribly messy but it was not clean either.

You see we as Christians like to go through our lives just tiding up little here and a little there. But there are things that we need to not leave for another day. We need to address it in the now. We need to get things cleaned up and organized. Don’t leave it for another day that which can be addressed today.

My daughter did something that made me have to sit down and go through my mess I was letting pile up.

In life we get comfortable with leaving stuff alone to pile up. But after time it starts to affect others around us. They start to notice. Some will just add to your pile of mess and allow it to continue to be messy. Others will move things and make it uncomfortable to continue to live with the mess.

Don’t wait to clean your mess up. Don’t allow it to sit and build up. Don’t make excuses to do it later or next weekend… Just do it. Keep it clean and tidy.

Keep your mess out of your house. For there is no reason or room for it. Don’t allow the mess of this world to pile up in your house again. Keep it clean and in order.



365 Days of Testimony: Day 35

I am grateful for a beautiful day we had been blessed with today. I got up early this morning and took my youngest daughter to a bake sale the kids were having at the Bridge. My daughter worked hard all morning helping at the bake sale. Soon my older daughter join us and worked really hard at the bridge selling items. She helped in every way possible.

I am super proud of my girls and their servants hearts. I know that they have been blessed with such a gift. A servants heart is what we all should be having. I love how I get to see both my children in this gift.

I can’t wait to see what God has in store for them in the near future.

365 Days of Testimony: Day 34

I got to enjoy some time with my youngest daughter Chloe tonight. Her school was hosting a mother’s day tea night. I got dressed and headed to get her from my parent’s house, as I pulled up the drive way she sat with her pretty little white dress on and bow in her hair. She had a new pink bag (purse) she had around her neck that fell to her side. She jumped up off the porch swing when she saw me coming.

She quickly ran to the car, excited for our night to begin. 🙂 Such excitement…. I waited for her to run her sister something real quick as she ran back outside she eagerly asked if she could sit in the front seat…

I told her yes. She got in the car and sat there all excited for the mother’s day tea. When we arrived she hurried inside to see who else had arrived as well. She was all excited and wanted to run and play with her friends.

One of which arrived on a go-cart… This little girl had her uncle bring her to the mother’s day tea. When they were inside I asked him where her mother was and he said she was home cooking dinner for everyone. When soon the girls began to joke by calling him mother (not sure his name). Then they ran off playing. I told him that it might seem embarrassing to him but that little girl would remember that always. That he cared enough to take time and bring her to the mother’s day tea.

As I type this now even I think of the excitement my little girl had waiting for me to get there to take her to this simple tea party. Not much about it but I went. When they lined up for a picture I personally didn’t want to take the photo. But I know that Memories are just for a moment and a photo last a while. I pray it turns out good. She on the other hand didn’t care how it turned out. She just wanted me to take a photo with her.

Children see there parents in ways that we can not imagine as an adult. They have not had the world corrupt their minds as in how to view those who care for them. They love their parents unconditionally. They know that their parents love them and care to provide what is best for them.

I am grateful for a child that sees me the way God intended me to be. As she gets older she might not look at me the same as she becomes more aware of the worldly mind sets and opinions on how life should be. I pray that she will seek after God and what His purpose for her is in life.

We as children of God need to be excited to spend time with Him more and more. We need to know that He cares for us and provides for us. I am thankful that God is not weak and self-centered like we are parents these days can be. I know that at times I need to spend more time with my children and with God. Less time with FB, my phone, my computer, and the TV.

When I quit filling my mind up with things of this world and instead fill it with the Word of God; then that excitement that my daughter had for spending a little bit of time with me will return to me as well.

Don’t lose sight of the mighty impact of spending time with each other has. I am not talking about watching a movie, a phone call, or even going out to eat… I am talking about seriously making an effort to pay attention to those things (children, parents, God, friends, co-workers, and other humans) that really matter. All other things will perish.


365 Days of Testimony: Day 32

As I walk daily in my life and begin to look around at others and their lives as well. I see how God has intertwined our paths along the way. I see people light up with smiles on their faces when I walk their way. I always tell people Good Morning, Good Afternoon, or Good Evening! I leave a smile for everyone to behold as I walk past them. I speak positive when they have negative to say. I try to let God’s light shine through me where ever I go.

I have been able to do this with ease without any problems, except…. one person , just one has me really trying to see why it is so hard for me to look past the negative and try to find the positive in this situation. I really truly feel like I have not sinned but really have had issues with being the light to one person I work with.

I was just recently moved at my job to take over another person’s position due to them moving to another position as well. I am now responsible for running the clerk duties on my new home with ease and getting ready for audits in less than 7 weeks.

Once I got back from my 5 days I took to spend with my husband out of state and returned to work. I was greeted with smiles, hugs, and we missed you… glad you are back.

I went to my new assigned place and wanted to start getting to work. For I knew the task ahead would be great. I had a delay. After my training I attended, about professional communication, that morning I needed to be able to get in my office and start working right away.

This is where my problem started with this person… Before I left Texas on April 18, 2017 we had a clerk meeting and it was asked if she would have all of her stuff done by April 25th, for when I returned that office would no longer be her office but my office. I waited patiently for her to leave and she would not. She busied herself with things that did not matter. Things that was just to stall. I decided that I would go to lunch with hopes of an empty office when I returned. Nope…. She was gone but I was unable to get on the computer because you guessed it, she locked it with her being still on the computer. I waited 30 minutes…..45 minutes…..1 hour…. I told the supervisor that she was still gone. (She told him she had to pick up a warehouse order, that would have taken like no more than 20 minutes max) So he came and restarted the computer and I was finally able to get on my computer for the first time that day but it was already 3:00 pm. I was able to get just one email actually read…. She had returned…. She kept going on and on about inventory which is something that clerks do not do on the home that is JCO’s job. I listened patiently and tried to be nice…. all the while wanting her to leave so I could get something done. By the end of that day I had accomplished nothing and felt like I had been there but not really there.

The next day…. I was able to get some things done…. but she was back…. going through what we call master files and moving up to 20 out of the cabinets. I just continued to work to get some of the everyday things we use in order. Around 4pm I noticed that she never returned to make sure the 20 master files were put away or sent off the home. I told the JCO VI that she needed to come move the files to where they were suppose to be. Well that did not happen. 15 minutes till time to go home, I am putting master files back in the cabinets behind locked files. I just wanted to go home by 5. The next day I was able to get things done.

I find myself, having the hardest time showing the Love of Christ to this person and I don’t know why. I am not rude to her… I am not mean… but I feel like I talk about her when I should not…. yes I am not perfect and yes I have a hard time dealing with this issue. …. I find that she has not done any of her clerk work over the last 4 months…. Which as all now fallen on my shoulders and made my burden very heavy… I have been on my new dorm for 5 days now. I work long hours and busy all day long. I have not even taken lunch the last 2 days. At the end of the day I personally feel like I have accomplished nothing…. I know that I am making progress but still… I feel like I have done nothing.

I am not sharing all this to complain… I know with the details in this blog it shows that my complaints are great with this one person.. and to be honest… they have been. I am not sure what I need to do… I made the statement several times that I was going to stop talking about it and ragging on her not doing anything in the clerk position…

I personally feel ashamed that I have behaved the way I have. I know that I am human, I make mistakes as well. I know that I am not being the christian person I profess to be when I do this. This is not the first time I have felt like I have not been handling the situation with this lady correctly.

In the bible Jesus was speaking to Peter when he asked Jesus about forgiveness….

21 Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, “Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother who sins against me? Up to seven times?” 22 Jesus answered, “I tell you, not just seven timesbut seventy-seven times!                        Matt 18:22

I feel that I am holding the extra work that was created for me against this person.. I feel like I am sinning with frustration and anger over the fact that she has not done what she said she was going to do. I need to forgive her and pray she will forgive me for holding this against her.

She probably will not understand me going to her and letting her know that I need forgiveness for feeling this way, but I feel like in order for me to stop with the negative connection, I have too. I don’t want the Love of Christ and the Light of His Goodness be snuffed out by this one issue. I want to be humble enough to say I am sorry and I am wrong for being and acting that way towards her. And, that I am sorry for sharing my feelings about what she has done with everyone I talk too because I am so frustrated and stressed over the situation that lies before me.

Once I ask for her forgiveness on it I pray that the Light of God and His Goodness will Shine through me once again without any hindrances.

Some of you might wonder how this blog fits in with testimonies…

You see, in order to be forgiven you must forgive. I for one am grateful that I know when something does not seem right within my walk with Christ. I am learning of course more and more everyday. I know that once I do my part… (asking forgiveness of this one lady, and then shutting my mouth about it from now on) God will handle the rest. I honestly don’t want to be the nagging and complaining clerk.. which I have been for the last week…

When I found out that I was being moved I knew this was going to happen.. I made the mistake and did not choose to walk in the Joy of the Lord, through it all. I have to get my Joy back…. (Jesus On You) and walk through this with a rejoicing heart… (I have a good job and I like my job) It may be hard or stressful right now but it will work out for the better. What satan tries to harm me with, God will turn it around for good. I will restore my walk and know that it is only by His grace that I am able to know that I have treated her wrong. Know what I have done is not the way to act and handle things that frustrate and anger you. Take it to God, keep quiet, and remember your Joy.

This is the day that the Lord has made, I will (choose) to rejoice and be glad in it!

This is a choice! Choose wisely, whom shall you serve?

365 Days of Testimony: Day 31

I am grateful and thankful that I am blessed with Good Health. 🙂 I am super tired right now so I will make this short and sweet.

I have been working super hard at work and nothing seems to be getting accomplished. I have do plenty and am always busy. I get caught up in looking at things through my eyes and not the eyes of my Lord. I will do one thing and have 10 more come on me. That is okay because I can handle it. I do need to realize that running myself down is not the way to go about my life. The same work will be there whether I complete it in one day, week, or month. I have a job to do and even if it is slow at first it will get done. I am grateful for my job that has worn me out the last few months. Many changes and lots of unknowns. But I assure you that there is One Known that will never change… That is that Abba is on the Throne! Jesus Conquered the Battle for me.

All he asked me to do was run the race and finish it. I want to run the race well. I want to complete it, not start it and then lose direction but to win the race and finish it well.

He will give us rest. He is our everything. God thank you for your rest, and your divine health that you give through Jesus Christ Blood on the Cross. I am truly grateful that your timing is perfect in all your ways. Not my way but your way..

Don’t forget to rest. Don’t grow weary, in doing well. Don’t give up hope. Stand firm on the Word that you may have life and life more abundantly.


365 Days of Testimony: Day 30

I am so blessed to have some awesome kids. God blessed me with 2 of the most beautiful girls in the world both inside and out. They are caring, loving, helpful, confident, and love God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit.

Today I was able to see just a glimpse of what God has allowed me to train up, results.

We had a very long day but a very good and blessed day.

Started out early this morning getting up and ready for Church. Out the door by 8 am. Got to church and Stormy sat beside me through the service. She took notes for one of our friends in her note book. After church we go eat with some really awesome friends from our old church catching up on all the things in between the last time I saw them.

Then we went and got shoes, I had a few other stops…. Stormy keep a good attitude the whole time and Chloe minded for the most part. No, she was good as well. When we got home Stormy jumped right in and started a load of laundry. Then she asked if I could turn our praise and worship music on Pandora. I did… Then they started working on cleaning their room. Soon after she cooked the cheesy bread that I had bought for dinner. She served it and then back to cleaning she went. Chloe helped with sweeping and cleaning the bathroom up. They both made me super proud tonight. Stormy then arranged all the shoes on a small book shelf to get them out of the floor. She finished the evening with taking the dog outside, along with trash. She then switched out another load of clothes and folded 1/2 a basket of clothes before bed.

She came home and did all this without being told to do it. She did an awesome job and I am super proud of her and Chloe for helping around the house. Even though it was the weekend and that is not the choice of activity for the weekend it was something we did together. We had small of spurts of laughter as we worked getting things done in our home.

It brought great joy to me knowing that they helped me without being asked and they were not fighting over it or crying that they were not able to do other things.

Abba, Father, thank you for trusting me with these two great and important vessels for your Kingdom. Help me to continue to train them in the way they should go.

365 Days of Testimony: Day 29

I was gone from Texas last week for 5 days. Then this week I had to work late and didn’t get home till late. My parents kept my kids another 3 days this week and I began to really miss them. So today I made it a point to spend some time with them.

I finally got over to my parents house and we decided to go watch a movie. The movie was good but I think the best thing is the part where Stormy and I make fun of each other because we both were trying not to cry. Looking over her direction to see her smile back because she knows just exactly what I was thinking.

On the way home I was driving the back roads and I knew a bump was coming in the road. As I began to go over the bump, I said, “Weeee!” To my surprise Stormy reacted by trying to hit me. Both Stormy and Chloe jumped…. We had a good laugh on the way home.

It is the little things like laughing together and knowing what the other one is thinking that is a blessing to me. I love my girls with all my heart and I am thankful God saw fit that I was good enough to raise them.

Enjoy the Small Stuff with the ones you love.

365 Days of Testimony: Day 28

As I was driving to work this morning I was thinking on a word for the Day…. As most use the word, “Wonderful” for Wednesday, I did not want to be the same as everyone else. I thought about it for a while and the word, “Warrior” came to my mind. I have thought about this on and off through out the day and have done a little search on it as well.

According to the Webster Dictionary the word Warrior means:

  1. a person engaged or experienced in warfare; broadly :  a person engaged in some struggle or conflict poverty warriors

365 Days of Testimony: Day 27

I am back in Texas! There is no place like home… I love my state.

As I transitioned from the long weekend off I had to the first day back to work I think how blessed I am to come back to a job.

I was able to take off work to enjoy 5 days off. All of which will be paid. I left and am able to come back and have my position that I had when I left. I was moved from the office that I worked in but everyone at my job has been moved. I had to wait most the day for my new office to become available for me to even be able to get into it. I will starting tomorrow began the process of cleaning out the old stuff and moving my stuff in.

I like to be able to start fresh and organized. I have to move out the old stuff, sweep the place clean and then move in the new.

We have to replace the old with the new or it can become worse than it was in the first place. If I were to clean it out but then move the old back in and then some it becomes crowed and more of a mess to deal with.

Replacing the old with the new is a good thing. Old things have passed away and He is making everything new. When a demon is cast out from it dwelling place we are to replace it with the Holy Spirit, but if we do not and it returns finding it empty then it will go and get 7 more demons to share the new with.

I want to make sure that my old is done with and that the new is here to stay.

It will not be an over night instant change but over time it will get organized, swept clean and put back in working order.

God is good and He wants us to have new. To have new bread daily, new grace every morning and evening, and to renew our minds even daily.

Use this work example of cleaning out and starting a new, of how our lives are supposed to be once God gets a hold of us.


365 Days of Testimony: Day 26

I have been blessed to have the weekend off to spend with my husband. The flight up here was smooth and that weather has held off where it was not an issues with my time with Daniel.

The time to be honest has flown by. Here it is Saturday afternoon and already I am just down to 1.5 days left to spend with my husband. I am grateful that He was able to get off work today. We spent time shopping and really enjoying just time together.

I am grateful for angels watch over us especially when my husband is driving in this state. They totally do not follow the law when it comes to red lights. It is right out scary. I found myself covering my eyes even when we came up on a light.

I am grateful for my home state and the safety laws. I am now truly grateful for God telling me not to leave my home church for now.

I am going to enjoy the next 1.5 days with my husband. Be Blessed.