To Believe or Not to Believe

I have to go back a few month to start this blog. My oldest daughter has been having some physical issues with her stomach. In the last week and a half it had started to get worse.

Last Thursday after I got off work I called her just to see what she was doing. It was another typical school day and I was just checking on how her and Chloe’s day went. Within 5 minutes my daughter told me that she has been in severe pain and that it felt like her insides were being ripped out of her side. This was at 5:05pm. So I instantly got off the phone and called the doctor and asked to speak with someone about it. I left our information for the On Call doctor that was there till 6:30pm. By 6:00pm I was on the phone with the nurse hotline with CHIP. The nurse assessed Stormy and advised us to get to an ER to be seen within the next hour due to her pain level being an 8.

So off to the ER we went. Waiting in the ER I posted for prayers. (Thank you all for those prayers by the way). Two hours go by and we are still waiting in the waiting room with Stormy having bought of pain come and go. She is crying now. I am frustrated because of the over flow of flu patients in the ER it is taking hours to be seen.

I tell my husband to go ask them how much long it is going to take. Finally we get called to the back, just in time to wait another hour. They come in and do blood test and then order an ultra sound.

Finally we can get some answers… Or so I thought.

They come to roll her back to the Ultrasound room. She asked me to go with her. I sit in the chair watching for over an hour them look at all her organs. The first ultra sound tech was in training, put a ? mark by a picture she took of Stormy’s gallbladder. Then after she went and got the training ultra sound tech that also stayed on the gallbladder the whole time.

After an hour in the ultrasound room we were taken back to the room. Within 10 minutes the doctor came in and said that everything looked good but her gallbladder was tender. That we would need to follow up with her personal doctor and get a GI referral. They prescribed some pain meds and sent us on our way. So 5 hours later we get to leave the ER.

The next morning I get my daughter into the doctor. The ER sent all but the Gallbladder photos of the ultrasound. The doctor had told my daughter that it looked like they would have to wait till Monday and get CT scan done.

All weekend I watch my daughter in pain suffer with upset stomach and pain.

Attending church I asked for prayer for Stormy. I began to asked for a New Gallbladder and for the Pain to leave.

Come Monday Stormy went to the doctor and got a CT scan. By the end of the day we were informed that her gallbladder was good. That she was going to give her some meds to help heal her stomach from all the acid it had that was possibly causing the pain and upsetting of her bowels.

I still felt like a mother they haven’t found what is wrong with her. She has been in pain. I have watched my baby cry real tears and ball over in the floor with pain. I felt like they weren’t doing enough.

When I got home I found out that my daughter had been in the bathroom all afternoon with upset stomach. When we got home around 8pm she told me that there was also blood in her bowel and when she threw up. I instantly called the doctor’s office to once again give my information and told to expect a call back. After 45 minutes and no call  back I call my dad. He called my aunt and got some info on what to do next.

I called her doctor back today and asked several questions to get absolutely no where with no answers to any of my questions. I was told to just take her to the ER. This is coming from my daughter’s PCP. The doctor that is supposed to be who I go to. After much frustration the Lord began to speak to me when I hung up the phone. (And I was very frustrated for the last words I told the nurse was that we would be looking for a new doctor)

Today the Lord really convicted me of my beliefs. He told me that I can’t have it both ways. I either have to believe or not believe.

You see I had professed over my daughter for her to have a New Gallbladder.  But you see when He did exactly what I had spoken over my child and asked the Holy Spirit do a work in her body. He did.

I was not being thankful for the work that He had began in my daughter with her healing. Instead I was busy blaming the doctors for not giving me a reason why she was still in pain.

He basically told me that I needed to either completely believe or not to. I am so thankful for Grace that He gives even when we doubt. I have to learn to believe whole heartedly in His Word and Truth… I can’t believe then doubt in the next thought.

I made up my mind and decided that I am ready to trust, believe, and stand on the Truth and nothing but the Truth so Help me GOD! 🙂

P.S.
Stormy has not had any pain meds since early this morning. She has barely had any stomach issues. I believe for her full complete restoration and healing in her body. I don’t believe she will have to be on a special diet or medications. I believe she will possess the complete divine health in her body.

So Remember it is Easy to do, but you have to make the decision to Believe or Not to Believe.

Blessings

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