We as a family have been seeking Daddy for some answers in several different areas of our lives lately. One of those is where we would be moving too in the next 52 days. We were seeking His direction in the area of what to do. Such as, do we buy, rent, or did He have other plans for us.
Wednesday morning my husband was off work and my kids were still gone to their grandparents house so this gave us time to seek Daddy in the prayer room for answers. The first question we had for Him was what do we do when it comes to our house situation?
His answer to me was not what I expected.
He said, I will show you as you go out.
Trust in me.
Do you trust me?
Then walk forward I will show you. You have 3 homes to view today. View them…. I will give my answer after that.
After viewing the 3 homes the one we viewed 2nd was the one we liked the most. I informed the Realtor to start the negotiation process. For we have the first 600 needed to get the contract locked. But I told my daughter that if it was the house we were supposed to have that it would still be available when we got ready.
When we left we began to talk about this home and how it was what we wanted but deep down I was saddened. I don’t feel the desire to leave Ennis. I didn’t feel the release from my home town of the last 2 years yet. I know that without a doubt we have not been released from our home church.
As I began to think of the finances needed to purchase this home it would be more than what we have in our pockets. Which we were not fearing. I know that if it was where the Lord leads that He will make a way. Even if there seemed to be no way. I know that Daddy is teaching me to rely on His Kingdom system and not on the world system. Honestly that is one of the hardest things to do. To forget everything that I have ever been taught and to walk in Faith of a system that is Kingdom minded not earthly provided. For it is not in my own doing that these things are to be… I have for far to long relied on my own ability to provide and not my Daddy’s.
The scripture about counting the cost kept coming to my mind after we looked at this home. One it would cost us more than we had to get into it. Two the cost for a monthly payment would be 225 more a month than we wanted to pay. Then also if we were to purchase a home it would be something that we would be committing to 30 years of payments. We would in the end be paying 3 times what the purchase of the home would be in the first place.
For the last 6 months if not more the Lord keeps laying on my heart 4 to 5 years… That is all Daddy has been showing me. He has not told or shown me anything else but deep down I feel that we are grounded here for the next 4 to 5 years. This is why I don’t want to step our of His will for our lives and purchase a home that in the end is a cost that He doesn’t want us to have.
So Thursday Morning back to the prayer room we go, except this time it is the whole family in tow. Stormy soon after we started praying gave a word for us not to fear. I am sure she wanted to associate it with us buying the house. My husband prayed but soon left the prayer room. I for one could not get anything from Daddy during this time. So there I sat in the floor of the prayer room propped against the post just asking what to do….
Several things came to mind then. The same thought of counting the cost…. for this is a verse where it speaks of someone building a tower…. yes buying a home is a little different but still pertains to this scripture. To many people get into a home purchase that can not follow through the purchase due to the cost is too much. In return they lose their home. I for one do not want to step out and purchase a home unless Daddy tells me yes.
The second thing that came to mind is that again 4 to 5 years. I am not certain but again I feel this is telling me that we are temps in the area. Not to get settled for long-term. So why would we lock ourselves into a 30 year loan that we will become slaves too and not able to leave in 4 to 5 years. I know that if God tells us to buy a home then if He tells us to leave He will without a shadow of a doubt provide a way out. BUT if Daddy does not want us to but I for one do not want to have to ask Him to forgive us when it is time to leave in 4 to 5 years.
So this leaves rent option… We are to be out of our apartments in 51.5 days at this time. Where are we going to move to I have no idea…. but Daddy does. As I sit here writing this blog I am listening to the coffee shop owner teach the preteens about not being anxious for the thing of tomorrow. To trust that the Lord will provide the basic needs. Shelter, Food, Clothing for He does these things for the birds of the air and the flowers in the fields.
Then one of the girls was asked to give me a word of encouragement and then she prayed for us. She did an awesome job. I know that Daddy is working it out for us. He knows our need and where He wants us. He knows exactly what it will work best for our needs in every way. For we are a family of 4. We are faithful in our ways to God and He in return is faithful to us in every way. For He is a Good Good Father to us.
I am excited to see what He has in store for us. I am going to raise my expectations and trust in Him. I feel that the Lord is preparing our shelter for us. It might not be available yet but His timing is perfect.