Good Morning Peeps!
As I had a super busy day planned out today the Holy Spirit actually began to change it. I was going to get up, go get a check that I been expecting for a while now, head to Corsicana and cash it. I had a few bills to deal with. I for some reason was detoured on that this morning. Instead I was woken up this morning with my oldest daughter banging around in the bathroom and her room getting ready for the weekend. I then was woken up more with my husband turning on the bedroom light as he began to get ready for work at 7am. Just to look at his phone and be informed to wait till 9am to come into work. I decided since I was already woken up that I would go ahead and get ready for my day. We were all ready to leave around 7am. I left kissing my husband good bye for the day. I took the girls to school and then decided to call my husband and ask him to join me at Starbucks for a coffee date.
My husband and I get time together all the time without our kids for we are blessed to have my parents that spend a lot of time with them. Sometimes though we don’t get time to spend where we focus on us. This morning when I called Dan and told him to meet me at Starbucks it was good for us.
The Holy Spirit allowed that time to renew our hearts and minds on a few things. When I got ready to leave Starbucks I was going to head into my day as planned by me. But again, the Holy Spirit had other plans. I decided to head home and was actually going to lay back down and try to sleep, which is not hard for me. As I began to think I knew that my phone was in my backpack and I would need to get it because if my loving husband called or texted me and I didn’t reply then he would worry enough to actually leave work to come home and check on me. So I walked back down my stairs. (In our house we have an upstairs. We have learned to do whatever we need to in order not to go up and down the stairs over and over again.) Well when I got home I decided to check fb on my phone then I began to think of different things I needed to do throughout the next few weeks to prepare for some ministry stuff.
As I sat here I felt like I really needed to listen to some worship music. You see I have been neglecting time with Daddy. I even went as far as making a calendar and scheduling a set time for spending time with Daddy. Yes we as Children of God don’t always do what we were called or created to do. I was created to have a personal and close relationship with my Daddy. I have neglected spending time with Him. I seem to find other things to do like FB, or sleeping or just anything and everything to fill me time.
I surrender it all to Him today. I ask for forgiveness for not spending time with Him.
I turned me worship music on and when I got before Daddy this morning He began to speak to me through His word and really it has just wreaked me this morning.
I read my emails thing morning and one of them is a daily devotion form Joseph Prince. I will tell more about it in a minute.
I actually got off my couch and sat on the floor, got my bible, my notebook, pens, and music all out. As I sat here listening to my music I began to have things of the ministry needing addressed so I dealt with that.
Then I began to write in my notebook. When I talk to Daddy I usually write it down. I began asking Daddy questions. Like,
Where do we begin? Are we doing what we been called to do? Why do I feel like I am in a stand still?
As the last month since I quit my job has gone by I have learned that I can’t change things but I can change the way I deal with life.
When my husband’s job says they are going to cut hours at his job, and then they make him come in 2 hours later instead of regular time more than one day in the week. Mind you he is the only one working in our family.
I could get upset, hound my husband that he has to work as much as possible, and just constantly worry how we are going to do this.
I can thank Daddy for giving him the ability to make wealth to provide for our family. Then I can thank Daddy for providing the rest of the means that we need. This way I am walking in the Joy of the Lord and not worrying but learning to Trust Him to provide as He says He will.
This is where I began to hear to Lord speak to me while ago, as I began to write in my notebook. God began to speak to me. He told me to go back and look at what Joseph Prince posted again today.
31 “Therefore do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For after all these things the Gentiles seek. For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things.
As I turned to the scripture and began to read over this, He reminded me that I am not created to worry about these things but to seek Him first. I began to read the next verse that is so well known but very few live by it.
33 But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.
I am to seek my Daddy first in everything and His righteousness. I am not to worry about the stuff this world makes priority in our lives over having a relationship with Daddy. We were not created for self-righteousness but for Daddy’s pleasure of having a right relationship with Him day after day.
I began to read all of Matt 6
Wow, is all I can say. Daddy is showing me answers to my questions in a way I would have never imagined. I am to seek Him first… not worrying about the food, clothes, shelter, and other earthly needs but to worry about what He wants first.
Daddy forgives me for neglecting to Seek You First and to Study Your Word. Lord thank you for giving me the Holy Spirit to teach me all things and to being faithful no matter what I as a child do. Lord Help me seek you daily and keep my mind set on You in everything I do.
I know this is a long blog but it is my heart and what I felt the Lord speaking to me this morning. I am ready to stop being luke warm and instead being a raging fire so hot that the Holy Spirit begins to just catch others around me on fire. Be Blessed Love you Guys and Gals. Jesus Loves You and He is Always Willing to Forgive and Allow you to Start again. 🙂